Dear Blog how I have neglected you...

Hola! I had a blog in mind to speak of about power. That was weeks ago so I will cover it briefly and then move on since I have much to cover and so much to catch up on. Well, I was feeling down and out because my whole life I thought you needed power to make a difference. By power I meant money, recognition, people backing you, respecting and following you. Well, believe it or not even the guy on the corner selling apples and oranges has power if he really wanted to use it. The power I learned is within you and only when you realize that can you use it. You don't need fame, fortune or anything to use the power we all have within us to make a change and a difference for the better. Thanks to GOD and a friend I realized that just when I needed to. Even the simple gestures we do can dramatically change one persons life, which then can change the lives of those people that know that person. So let's bring out the power within us with the strengths we already have and put it to some good use.
Today, I met a beautiful person which sat down with me at a Starbucks and was not afraid to talk about GOD and the world with its issues. I realized that yes we can isolate ourselves and try to do it alone but why? We are here for each other and surrounded by each other for a reason. You can isolate yourself but try falling by yourself. When you fall and you have others around you they can be there to help pick you up or continue what you were doing for the greater good. We are imperfect beings and make mistakes which is how we learn. I actually have learned to love making mistakes because through all of my mistakes I have grown so much and learned how to navigate through life better. Don't let your imperfectness get you down. There is no one in this world that is perfect, they may think they are but nope they are not. Sorry to those that thought that. Only GOD has the best of me and my love which is how I survived peacefully for so long. That my friends is what made me so happy to hear with the person I met today. That it is ok to talk freely about something you love so much. NOT pushy, just share your love. Anyway, there are many problems within ourselves and throughout the world. We can choose the easy way out and do nothing or work to fight for peace freedom and love. Let's stop judging each other on what we did or did not do and what was wrong or not or hurtful or not. Live, learn, love and work together. Above all Forgive because if GOD can forgive why can't we? Humans are so caught up in being wronged and revenge and holding grudges and so on. That can not be a happy life. We have alllll been wronged in one way or another. Let the truth be revealed to you and live life. Why be a prisoner of hurt and pain? All of that only damages you and stunts your well being. I love you all and if I can help in anyway I would love to. Reach out if you need it. Keep in touch with those you love and don't just talk the talk walk it. You actions mean so much more. Honestly, I would rather receive the keys to ones heart than just hear about it all the time. Let's not settle for less and improve ourselves so that we can be an inspiration to others. I still have much to learn but I love to share when I receive some great knowledge and wisdom. I will leave you with this since I have been battling issues within myself of whether to trust your mind, heart or gut instincts. "The human heart feels the things the eyes cannot see and knows what the mind cannot understand." (THANKS ANDREA) "A precious human life is to live to benefit others." THANKS DALAI LAMA

ALWAYS PEACE N LOVE,

YOU KNOW,

JANIECE

The Mind

Hello!!! It has been a while. I lost my grandmother and haven't really been myself. She is really missed by many. Well, by now you may know that I only write when I have a firm idea in mind. So, when I lost my grandmother I thought I was going to be prepared for it because she was sick for a while. As a human, you are never prepared. Maybe if you are an alien cool lol but not human. Eventually, you will feel the loss. Any who, as an actor, I always over analyze how I react to certain things and how my emotions are affected. I realized for one, that no matter how much I mentally prepared for her death, I could not have been more unprepared. Not only that, I was tested big time. I could not go to the funeral due to finances. That was pretty bad. I told everyone I was cool but reality was I wanted to be there for my mother. I didn't need to be at the funeral but I did need to be there for my mom. The person that I am with at the moment went away to New York while this was all happening and I really felt so down by it. Luckily, GOD Is amazing. My awesome friend just so happened to be staying with me and visiting that week and he could not have been a better support system. Then, my roommate, which we had previously had a fall out, really came through as a supportive friend in many ways. Despite all of the support and love the mind tends to wander when it is overloaded with emotional stress. The thoughts that come through the mind about the people that are loving and supporting you just are overwhelming and overkill. You think the most outrageous things and doubt everything. I believe this is due to the human mind not being able to cope with death, no matter how much you prepare or say it is for the better. Death is one subject the mind can not comprehend and therefore wanders into negative thoughts. The mind tries to deal with it by creating things that it can comprehend but that are not good for you. I had all kinds of crazy thoughts about the dearest friends and family. You try to cope and don't realize you are killing everything around you. Thankfully, I am an actor lol and was able to realize my emotions were taking over my mind. I realized that through not being able to deal with death and loss, I created other things I could deal with. But, since I had nothing else to do deal with dramatically, my mind was searching for things to deal with and since there was nothing, my mind began getting juicy. I never voiced them to the people lol good because I would have been a fool. They say the mind is a powerful thing. It sure is. I was ready to begin a soap opera in my life that was unnecessary because my mind was playing tricks on me. Take control of your mind, the way I did. It is very difficult because even though it is your mind it really has a mind of its own and could end up controlling you. Get to know yourself so you can avoid all of the mind games your mind plays on you. Thankfully, I am doing good and have been able to release and cope. Also, I came to terms with my thoughts and mind and am feeling a lot better. Try to think of your thoughts and how you feel before you make any firm decisions. The mind is a tricky tricky little object... Don't get tricked... Tricks are for kids!!!

Always Peace N Love,

You know,

Janiece

Life

I have been wanting to write this one for over a week now. However, life, lol got me real busy. Busy is great for me though, I prefer it that way. Yet, not too busy where I can't write and create time for my loved ones. So there it is create; this will be the word of the evening and the blog. Most of us are raised being told life is about finding yourself. Well, thankfully I grew up with a mother that was constantly wanting to grow in all ways and that also rubbed off onto me. We found together, that life is actually about creating one self. We are not put here to treasure hunt and seek what is not there. I believe this is why most people are lost and tend to wander. I think we need to create what fits best and through the creation we find who we are. Stop looking and begin getting creative. Try everything, see what works and what doesn't. It is ok to explore and create something that you may have to toss. Painters, dancers, singers and all kinds of artist constantly create work that just doesn't work and they move onto something that will. Creating is a process of elimination and is not fail proof. You are going to have to toss some ideas. When you begin something, anything you learn will be through experience and really through creating something wrong. This wrong creation allows you to create something right because you know what will not work. I hope I haven't lost you. In case that I have, basically this process of creating one self is a long one. Feel free to throw out something you created which you did not like and start fresh. I am sure many acclaimed artist have done so. I am certain that they did not make their masterpiece the first try. Therefore, begin to create yourself to the point that you love what you have created and it is your masterpiece. Then you will know when you have found yourself.

Always Peace N Love,

You Know,

Janiece

Attachment to an idea...

When people say, or think rather, they are attached to something, it is really a facade. It can also be very detrimental if that is not realized. Personally, I have really detached myself of many things and people in the past year. I would think I was attached to my family and friends. I mean there are days I can't breathe, literally, from missing them but I catch my breath and move on. For those of you that don't know, I moved 9 months ago from Miami to Los Angeles. I moved to a city where I know pretty much no one. I felt the attachment to my dog and would cry on certain days because I left her back home. YES! I cried for my dog - Don't judge me! LOL I purchased my dream car and would go nuts if I had crashed or had to sell it. I have a great home to go to every night. I am very attached to my home because if my home were to fall apart or I couldn't afford it anymore, I wouldn't know what to do. I have been attached to material and emotional ideas in my life. Yet, it is all as meaningless as that last millionaire idea you did nothing with. We are not attached, we are comfortable and pleased with ideas. We can not be attached because it all could change in 1 day, let alone 1 hour. You can not prepare for the unexpected but you can definitely be ready. It is the idea that I can not live with out these things or people but I can and so can you! I have learned to live without my mother physically and at times emotionally. It has been the hardest thing I think I have ever had to learn. I know her love is there, always present and our bond is continually growing stronger. However, we are not attached to each other and know how to function just through our love that flows. To be honest, my life seems like it is all falling apart at times and the things I had thought I was attached to are really not important. I am not attached to dancing, I just love the art of dance and am grateful to be able to make a living through it. Although, God forbid, if my path were to change tomorrow and I would have to do something else to survive, I will be ok and dance in my living room on my own time. I am not attached to the idea of being a dancer, I just love to dance. My car is a material item I thought had an emotional attachment to. No again! I originally bought the car because it was my dream car since I was a child. It was also a special edition for the cure for cancer. For those of you who don't know, I lost my grandfather to cancer. He was the reason for my passion in cars. I grew up learning and loving cars. So, not only did I buy my dream car but it had meaning to it. It represented my grandfather and the cure for cancer. I was attached to the idea that the car somehow could keep my grandfather near me. Not at all!!! That car could go tomorrow and my grandfather's energy will be all around me and all of the memories are with me, not in the car! So, house, car, lover, mother, father, friend, job, life - Do not be attached! There is no such thing, you can survive, as sad as the thought may seem without all of that. Attachment is an idea in our head. Realize that its the love of all these ideas that keep them alive and dear to you. My love for my mother will never go away, no matter how far she is; my love for that car will never go away - if it goes, every time I see it in the street, I will orgasm. LOL Let's not be prude, it is a figure of speech. My love for my dear friends, is always there; my love for my lover is there, even if I do or do not receive back. My love for my job is amazing and I'm grateful. My love for the idea of my home and of how my life should be is there, I'm still surviving because I'm not attached and I know it will come. The answer is to love it all but not be attached to it. Let things change and flow, it is the only way you'll learn and grow.

P.S. Wrote this on paper yesterday afternoon. While driving home late last night I saw a gentlemen crash his car on the highway into the wall right before my eyes. If I were going just a bit faster, I would have been in that crash! Lets all pray for that man and know that life can change in an instant so loving your ideals is healthy but being attached could really ruin your life.

Love you all!

Always Peace N Love,
You Know,

Janiece

Tell Florida Lawmakers: No More Wrongful Convictions

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SOOO!!! This hits home hard for me!! I usually do not like talking politics or issues that deal with the government. But, and that is a big but lol. This issue happens to be occurring back home and I have major issues with the policies that deal with convictions of any kind. At an early age, I realized that the governments policy of innocence until proven guilty, is a crock and load of dirty laundry which will not be cleaned. Someone very close to me was taken to jail wrongfully and the "Police" had no proof of her guilt. Yet, she was still detained, most likely because she was a poor hispanic woman with no power or voice, according to the majority of society. To make matters worse, now get this, she was taken to jail for a busted tail light, no seat belt and a warrant for her arrest due to bad checks. Ok, fine, go straight to jail, do not pass go but no bail!!!! How can murderers, like the young man that admitted to shooting my cousin, I mean admitted to his crime; how can a murderer get bail and a poor desperate young hispanic woman not get bail for bad checks, a busted tail light and no seat belt? REALLYYY???? I can not begin to emphasize how ass backwards that is and how much our system is a lie!!! Needless to say my cousins murderer was bailed out within 24 hours. While my beloved hispanic woman which committed a misdemeanor was stuck in jail for the weekend with no bail! Lets rewind, my cousin was a hispanic young man, which the police viewed as just another hispanic gangster. What the police did not know, is that my cousin was not a gangster and was a very smart and caring hispanic male with plenty of potential. Yet, the police saw it as another non-important spanish male, that would have caused havoc. They allowed his murderer to walk for doing the police a favor of getting rid of the garbage. The murderer fleed the country and the police had him in custody with a full blown voluntary confession of the murder!!!! How did this kid get bail and get away?? Back to the innocent woman in jail waiting for courts to open Tuesday, it was a long weekend, just our luck. YES, innocent!! Turns out the warrant was not for her, it just so happened they had the same names and ethnicity. So, in jail for four days, no bail for a busted tail light, no seat belt and a wrongful accusation of writing bad checks. The police did not bother to check, they saw a hispanic woman and assumed. What happens when the system makes a mistake? What happens when your rights are violated and you are put in jail and held guilty until proven innocent, not the other way around? What happens when you realize you are not protected if you are a minor? People who murder minors flee and get bail and your innocent self goes to jail for a misdemeanor you did not commit, with no bail. I have written that several times to make you all realize how wrong that is on so many different levels!!! I can not begin to express my anger but that will get me no where. What will get me somewhere is reaching to the masses, especially minors, to take stand and voice your rights of innocence until proven guilty!!! Because, lets face it we are the ones that get picked on. Additionally, lets take stand and stop being afraid because that is what gives them power. They feed off fear. When they are wrong we have to prosecute them, the way they do to us on a daily basis. We can not continue to allow the government to make immense detrimental mistakes and just give them a slap on the wrists. We are talking about people's lives here! Who is responsible for that? I say the people that put us in jail wrongfully and detain us and then the people who judge and make the decisions to kill us! Who are they? Who are they, that they can make mistakes and ruin peoples lives and families because they think they have the power!!! STAND UP!!!! Speak up and use the system's policy to your advantage! YOU ARE INNOCENT UNTIL PROVEN GUILTY! NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND! NOTE TO ALL POLICE, DO YOUR WORK!!! THAT IS WHAT WE PAY FOR YOU!!!!

Always Peace N Love,

You Know,

Janiece

Letting go and moving forward!

HOLA!!! So, we all know that in life there are "curve balls" as we call it or "bumps in the road" or just some real dark "when it pours it rains" kind of moments. I hope we all know that all of these experiences are a growth opportunity. Even though they are negative experiences, if you are seeing clearly there is something to learn and grow from it. Aspire to see clearly as difficult as that may be when you are in the middle of a battle. If you truly believe that negative experiences always become positive outcomes, life will be a bit more blissful. I have been living by this motto since I was 11 when I lost my grandfather, I took hold of it at an early age but it did not come easily. At times, when the situations are so harsh you enable the unclear. You bring forth the worst in yourself and allow the situation to take over. Take yourself out of the picture and look at it as an onlooker, try not to get tangled in it. I know it is harder said then done but I am currently doing it myself. I know that this is a skill I want to sharpen because life will always have curve balls. Learn from your situation, analyze, grow, take it with you to add to your wisdom and evaluate everything else around you at that moment. Simply because, while you are going through your abhorrent issue you might miss out on something really amazing that has come out of your issue. You may just lose that good offer and miss it, if you are all caught up in the midst of darkness and allow detrimental feelings to drive you. The universe is a tricky yet beautiful prized possession. It does work in mysterious ways but the mystery is for you to figure out and it may not reveal itself right away. Stay positive and clear, allow yourself to let it go for the moment, move forward and continue. One day, you will encounter something that will force you to go into your dark files and realize why you went through that predicament. It will all clear up somehow someway someday!

Always Peace N Love,
You Know,

Janiece

Indifferent

Do you ever wake up scared? Just didn't sleep right, tossed and turned all night and then all of the sudden wake up in a jolt and your terrified. I was told a couple of weeks ago in acting class, which also happens to be a life class, that the opposite of love is not hate - it's indifferent. It makes sense, Love and Hate are actually very close, hence the phrase there is a thin line between love and hate. I have experienced both. I have loved and hated. Yet, my genuine love has only been between my parents and I and my dog lol. When you truly begin to love someone that could be your mate and allow them to love you, it feels great. I have been told of true love, soul mates, blah blah... I never believed in it. I have always had a wall up protecting myself from this thing called love. Actually, indifferent was really my way of being. When you are indifferent you don't allow yourself to feel, you can't possibly be scared because there is nothing to be scared of and you can't get hurt because you don't allow yourself to love. It is the safe way of living. When you love it hurts, even when things are perfect and thats something I can't explain. Love is inexplainable. You allow yourself to be vulnerable and that is the scary part. Love is living and embracing the moment and hoping it never ends but thinking of all the wonderful possibilities for the future. When you truly love, unconditionally, and do not expect anything back, it is a part of you that you may only know and feel once. When you find that person and love in that manner it is real and never changing. Now, there is all kinds of love - conditional, physical, intellectual, lust, love at first sight, one night love and I could go on and on. Yet, when you unconditionally love someone, you know it and you will know you can only see yourself doing it for that one person. You see eye to eye on that love and you embrace it with fear because like I said, it is not something that happens everyday and some never even get to experience it. It is an unusual feeling that causes terrifying sensations in your body and soul. I don't even think the human mind was made to understand it or know it. If you do begin to feel scared but safe at the same time, blissful yet sad at the same time, love and pain at the same time, laugh and cry at the same time, empty and full at the same time, these could be signs. The signs are so confusing and thats when the human mind begins to mess it all up because it is something alien and not recognizable and it can't be intellectualized. So, we create ways to intellectualize it with jealousy, fights over petty things, expectations, being distrustful, possessive, and the actions go on and on. We ruin it because we don't know it. If you are lucky and are spiritually elevated, he may just help you through it and you can allow yourself to experience this amazing thing we call true love and if you happen to find your soul mate to do it with, consider yourself one of the blessed ones. Don't be scared... My guess is, who ever created that saying, it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all, knows what I am writing about. The way I see it, even if I only get to experience it for a little while, I will be thankful I had him for the time I did and keep that with me forever. I never knew this existed..."Me Either."

Always Peace N Love,

Now You Know,

Janiece

Irresponsibility???

So! I totally missed my court date today?? Does this mean I am irresponsible?? This would officially be my second act of irresponsibility for 2010 according to my family and society. I have never been this way. Could this be the year I am embracing my youth?? I am not sure what to make of this? Should I just move on and realize I am human?? But then why was I able to be on top of everything before while juggling full time at a University, 2 jobs and four years younger?? Could it be stress? I know stress is the the cause for most human mess ups and illness. Yet, when I look back and try to evaluate and compare, I am no where near half as stressed as I used to be. Maybe I am turning into a werewolf or a vampire and can't handle the pedestrian life ha ha j/k. Anyway, this is why blogs are great, you can write out your worries to the world and not get sick over it being all bottled up inside. For the record, I will not be writing too many personal blogs - just felt like this is an issue plenty of people may go through and I'm here to tell you that it is ok to lose track once in a while or twice in a while lol. We are imperfect beings and everything truly happens for a reason! Anyhow, I am going to move pass this and be responsible enough to fix todays mess. I just hope the cops don't come knocking on my door! LOL

Always Peace N Love,

Now You Know,

Janiece

Wii injuries on the increase, says medical journal

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Wow Really!! They finally found a way to make people get up and have fun with the hand held video games and they want to find the negative in it. People don't over abuse and hurt yourself "from intensive use of [video game]". Where did every ones common sense go?? This is America like when they condoned Ms. McDonald which won the law suit for getting burnt from Hot Coffee...

A New Beginning that shall be Never Ending

Hola! This is officially my first Blog! There will be many more for your entertainment. I can only hope I do not offend anyone along the way but lets loosen up because I am very blunt in a good way. I am harmless and love to write and tend to ramble. So, get ready to read read read. For those of you who abhor reading, ah thats a great word LOL, I will try to get some voice over done (a future goal for blogging). Any who, I will leave it at this... We all know I am here to become a successful actress/dancer. So, I concur that a celebrity is a person who works hard all of their life to become well-known. Then, wears dark glasses to avoid being recognized. That was a little help from Fred Allen by the way. Therefore, I will not be a celebrity but an entertainer I shall become!

Always Peace N Love,

Now You Know,

JANIECE